I miss my mother’s prayers. I began to feel it shortly after her death. It was a tangible loss. But how could that be that I feel such a absence of virtue towards myself? Did she not still have supplication to the creator on her children’s behalf?
I believe my mother’s soul lives on and that she dwells in paradise with God. I believe she is doing angel work which would include prayers. So why was this feeling that her power of prayer was no longer directed towards God on my behalf.
“So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.” 2 Corinthians 4:18
“In prayer it is better to have a heart without words than words without a heart.” Mahatma Gandhi
My mother spent most of her days and nights in prayer with her whole heart. Is this absence I feel because her heart is still? What about her soul heart? Does it not pulse within the cosmos?
She prayed in gratitude. She even thanked God for her pains and sorrows–which sometimes included her children. My mother prayed so much into each of us and all those around her that I could not imagine that kind of power being gone. I imagined her prayers continuing forever.
“Silence is as deep as eternity, speech as shallow as time.” Thomas Carlyle
Perhaps, I think, and I may err in thinking it but I think it the same…perhaps my mother is no longer confined to mortal concerns and her energies are more universal. Her power of prayer focused now towards universal needs which spread across space and time. Therefore, her concentrated prayers for us while she was mortal were so keenly felt and now they are more quantum or macro. Perhaps what sense my brain struggles to make is irrelevant because I know her love and care is eternal.
I miss my mother’s prayers for me. This absence leaves pain and despair. Or…is it space to take up my own power and turn my focus more keenly towards asking in gratitude for the peace and healing of all those I love, all those I know, all those who share this planet with me?
Lord, may thy grace be upon all those who are sick and afflicted today. Thank thee oh father for thy blessings of peace and comfort and healing upon those in despair and who struggle with hope and faith. Thank thee Creator for sending angels to comfort, guide, and strengthen all those I know. Thank thee for sending thy light and blessings to those I love. I trust thee. I put my trust in thee. In the name of thy gracious son, Jesus Christ, Amen.